Friday, June 19, 2009


Now, don't get me wrong! I know I did stupid things when I was young but this was before I was married, before I had kids and I'm totally not saying doing those things was okay but I didn't have any responsibilities to anyone but myself. I chose to hurt myself over and over while family, friends and coworkers were telling me STOP! & This is a bad situation! I just pushed those people away while Satan pushed me through many many more messes and I just kept along because he totally had my #NUMBER#!

I'm not so much glad I went through this big mess but I totally think it happened for a reason, I've learned from it and it has shaped me to be who I am today. The situation was addicting and it took a lot to get away from it. (No it wasn't drugs or alcohol) I'm just so thankful that after so many many months after realizing I was in this train wreck I still had a friend left over and my mom and sisters were there and they hadn't just wrote me off forever.

There is a certain situation that has been floating around for the past 9 months or so and whenever I think about it for a while I see what things I lost as far as opportunities, friends and self pride - I just want to bang this "said" girl's head up against the wall! Mostly because I love her so much but also because there is one particular little sweet reason with pigtails that just makes things SO MUCH MORE SERIOUS!

My husband keeps telling me not to be mean to her about it and to be sweet and be there for her but whenever she says something so completely bazaar I pretty much tell her I can't believe that you might be considering this or that - and Don't be a stupid women! These comments don't help and even staying completely out of it doesn't make me feel like I'm helping any. I realize that I'm not supposed to solve the problems of the world but it breaks my heart to watch this happen to this particular girl. Not any of us really know what to do besides just pray about the situation (which obviously isn't just Nothing - it is definitely Something!) Having gone through this already I just want to fix it and tell her STOP! and have her listen ya know!?


Krista said...

Often people have to reach rock bottom before they will take the Savior's hand and the hands of friends and family. Continue to be there for her, she will need you sooner or later.

Brian and Jodi Brown said...

Amen Sista'
We love her so much that is why we feel this way.

Jackie said...

This is just another example of how Satan can manipulate us and work up to the point of believing his lies.
But the devourer comes only to steel, kill and destroy, but Jesus came to give us life and give it more abundtantly. John 10:10


There is a way that seems right to a man but in the end leads to death.
Proverbs 14:12
Each one of us needs to feed on the word, seek His face, keep our focus on Him so that we are able to recognize satan's traps.

to the moon


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