Where do I begin?

Do you ever feel like you are watching your life and not participating in it? I've been feeling this way for a while and I just can't seem to snap out of it! I am in a fog and I have aspirations of "the woman I want to be" and know I have it in me somewhere... I just can't seem to get the ball rolling in the right direction.

My sister and I were talking about this the other day and I was telling her what I was working on, as far as personal goals and aspirations, and she was telling me about her things. This way we can encourage each other - but honestly it obviously can't just end there... I've got to Start! I've got to get going! or I'll be sitting here another 10 more years from now and wish I would have (as I do now).

These aren't really career things, I've never really been a career type gal - I never went to college, I've never really had any true career goals or ideas of "What I wanted to be when I grow up" my challenges mainly include becoming a Woman of Substance for mainly my God, my family and myself. I need to establish a daily, weekly, monthly routine consisting of everything from exercise, to family time, to home projects and goals, and don't forget outings for the kiddo.

As the Proverbs 31 verse goes I want to be a Godly woman, I am going to work towards my husband and children being proud of me and I hope they see me more precious than any jewel in the world, I will strive to be more diligent with the affairs of our home, become a noble woman and every morning rises before those in my home and that way I can get my day started seeking his face, with prayer and devotion.

So, where do I start? I feel like I'm getting swallowed by the never ending tornado... I can't get out of the pulling and swirling of what the world wants and the idea that I've already failed and there is !No Hope! I should be this woman already! Where did I go wrong, why am I stuck!? I guess I could go on and on about asking questions as to Why and How did this happen and Where did I go wrong?

BUT!! That isn't going to get me anywhere. I've wrote out my plan and all I can do is pray and Start!

This morning I read something on DivineVerses.com and it mentioned that we can set up plans but those plans don't necessarily mean they are God's plan for us. It reminded me that I need to seek his ways first and rely on him for the plan for my life. (Prov 3:5-6) So I have a outline, "a game-plan", and I will seek him daily for guidance and strength... by listening (can't forget the most important part) that is the only way to Start!

Proverbs 3:9-18
9 Honour the Lord with thy substance, and with the firstfruits of all thine increase: 10 So shall thy barns be filled with plenty, and thy presses shall burst out with new wine. 11 My son, despise not the chastening of the Lord; neither be weary of his correction: 12 For whom the Lord loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son in whom he delighteth. 13 Happy is the man that findeth wisdom, and the man that getteth understanding. 14 For the merchandise of it is better than the merchandise of silver, and the gain thereof than fine gold. 15 She is more precious than rubies: and all the things thou canst desire are not to be compared unto her. 16 Length of days is in her right hand; and in her left hand riches and honour. 17 Her ways are ways of pleasantness, and all her paths are peace. 18 She is a tree of life to them that lay hold upon her: and happy is every one that retaineth her.